Juniper berries I

Lush spider plants and peace lilies were hanging from rods and shelves all over the loft. There were no rooms. As soon as you stepped inside, the entire space revealed itself to you. The area by the entrance was a few steps higher than the rest. It was humid. A few candles and some floor lamps cast a gleam over everything. He walked noiselessly in his woolen socks. His pants were rolled up at the cuffs to stay above the ankle. He greeted me timidly.

He wound up the Victrola and an old swing came on from the dusty record. He took me by the hand and started dancing. He wasn't bad, save a bit rigid, a tad shy. I was much worse, but it was fun. We weren't humans. Two lanky trees had gotten up and out from the soil and danced. Small blues fluttered around the peace lily flowers. I swear I saw fireflies in the dark corners of the loft. It was an enchanted forest, there was no loft. Through the opening between the leaves there was no ceiling to be seen, but the sky at dusk. The tune never seemed to end. We danced and danced, he kept a smile on his lips and something tender in his eyes. Then there were no lips and no eyes, there were star shakes and ridges and lizards in hiding. We became less rigid and less shy. Two tree spirits danced and it was a dance of leaf veins and fresh green branches. A soft wind, a sough, a sway.

I glanced at the Victrola; I knew it. It was identical to the one I had at home. It had the same cast handles and the same rosewood lid. The felt was even curling the same way mine was.

"Where did you get the Victrola from?"

"Jack Black's clone sold it to me for peanuts a few years back."

"In Skibhuskvarteret?"

"Yes!"

"Was it because his girl was kicking him out?"

"Yes."

The music faded, but not to the scratch of the spinning record. The music faded to the sounds of moving water and rustling leaves. He led me to the bed. We fell in it as if we were falling in a well. Our bodies never found a mattress, but warm water and a blanket of duckweed. We were weightless. We never broke the surface tension. He rested on his elbows, on top of the tiny green plants that floated on the lake.

He brought a vial before my face.

""Smell this," he said. I sniffed.

"What is it?" he asked.

"A flower," I answered.

"What flower?"

"I don't know."

"Passion flower."

He handed me the vial. Until then, he’d been playful. But now he grew serious.

"The passion of Christ became this flower. Five petals and five sepals, one for each loyal apostle. Do you know who's missing?"

"No."

"You and I."

"Are you a dream?"

"Yes."

I held on to the vial and swam up, up, up until it was morning and I was in my own bed. The tenements around the harbor were shrouded in fog. The world was real, cold and gray. The window was half-open and the fog was crawling into the room like a beastly breath. On the bonsai elm I kept on the windowsill, a small blue was resting. Where did you come from? I reached out to touch the butterfly, see if it was there at all. From my open hand fell not the vial, but a few juniper berries.